WHAT A ROLLER COASTER RIDE!

Last Sunday I walked in the Susan Komen Walk for a Cure. I did the entire 3.1 miles and had energy to spare. It was amazing! I even cooked dinner Sunday evening, fried chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy. (First meal I’ve cooked in many months) I had my new chemo drug on Monday morning. They had to give me benadryl prior to the chemo drug in case I had an allergic reaction, which thankfully, I did not. But due to the benadryl I was sleepy for several hours after treatment. I did work from 2:30 to 5:00 p.m. Tuesday morning I woke up and felt great. So great that I got up, cleaned and dusted my bedroom and vacuumed the entire house before going to work. (Oh, it was just like the good ole days!) Felt good all day Tuesday. Well.... come Wednesday morning that was all over, no more energy. I still went to work but left at noon and spent the rest of the day resting at home. Yesterday, I could barely get out of bed due to lack of energy. I did work from 10:30 a.m. to 2:30 p.m., but it was a struggle all the way! Today I feel better and am at work but still feel weak and don’t think I will be able to stay the whole day. I am thankful for each day that I feel well and have some energy, but on the days I am so wiped out, I just want to cry - actually some days I do have a little cry. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.

Half full ... or .... Half empty??

I was thinking the other day about the old, "How do you see the glass, half full or half empty?" Well it depends on the mood I’m in at the moment and I decided that there is another category, which is "that the bottom has fallen out of my glass and it is as empty as can be". That was how I felt last Saturday, Sunday and Monday as I was so exhausted that I was either sleeping or laying on the couch for those three days. The chemo on March 28th did not make me sick which I am grateful for, but boy did it wipe me out. Okay, I have to say that now that I think about it, I did get to spend Saturday and Sunday, sleeping and laying on the couch or air mattress at Jared’s house so I had the little grandsons to cheer me. They were so cute, Garrett (4 yr) and Brexton (3 yr) would cuddle up next to me and say, "Grandma, I love you" and then ask why I was so tired and why I couldn’t play. Looking back never seems as bad as when you are there, but at the time I felt like saying, "forget the whole thing" (whatever that means) Anyway, the past two days I have had more energy and am looking forward to having even more tomorrow and guess what I am going to use that energy for...... Thrift store shopping!! Yahoo!! Next Monday, the 11th, I start my once a week chemo with a different drug. It is not suppose to make me sick and some of the other side affects (sores in mouth, dry, irritated eyes, sores on skin) might not be so bad. It takes longer to administer, about 3 hours instead of 1 ½ hours so my time will change from 2:00 p.m. to 9:00 a.m. Thank you all for your love and support and I really would have to say that my glass is half full.